Eika

2006-08-27T16:32:00.000+08:00

Aku dah malas nk berbual byk-byk k.

Aku diam-diam org kacau aku..

Aku diam-diam org pijak kepala aku kan.

Fine.

Aku tak nak ckp pape lagi k pasal aku tak nak add salt and pepper.
Aku dah tak kuasa nk berbual.

Quoted:
....... things happen for a reason. if u cry, i'll cry too. hush now. everything is settled.................

Kau sendiri ckp/msg ngan aku bende ni dah settle kan. Tapi aku tak nmpk pape k.

mulut satu-satu jgn jadi mcm ******. Depan ckp lain, blakang ckp lain k. Jgn nk buat2 cerita paham.

Ni ade msg utk satu bdk yg suka tag kat kau nye blog.

Aku punya suka lah aku nk tulis ape kat blog aku. kau ade hal ngan aku per skarang? kalau ade hal, contact aku, jumpe aku. kita berbual. be matured k. tak payah nk tutup kau punya bodek, tag2 pat blog org. ada paham?? selagi org2 mcm kau masih ade pat dunia nie, slagi tu masalah2 tak akan selesai. ade reti? kau nk tgk aku punya kurang ajar, aku boleh tunjukkan. no hal k.

2006-08-15T13:27:00.000+08:00

Da Showcase II was awesome. Mad props to Dejahvoo Productions. Although there's some probs with the guest appearance's slot, it's the best gig/competition i've been to for 2006. Congrats guys!

I love the ending of the show. I wish to see it coming in again. To Da Fam, DSC and beats-society, korang havoc giler baby hokay!! Click clack!!

L _l

Ydae i went to catch "click". It's a great movie. I almost cried during the last part. Touching gitu. How i wish i have the remote control with me. Hehehehe. It's funny how the dog can "ehem" with the duck. C'mon! Get a life doggy!!

If you guys are wondering what the hell im saying, do catch the movie ok.. Great to watch!! Go Go Go!!!!

I know this blog is getting boring and boring each day. What to do. There's no interesting story going on. My eng is becoming frm bad to worse. Oh God! How i need a new novel.

Really. I've got no life one. My story semua boring-boring. Korang menyesal sey dtg sini baca my blog. Hahaha..

Some people kan.. Read my blog kan.. But don't know how to tag tau.. Menyampah!! Saye tak mkn org lah!!!

Tags Replied:-

*yaNa*: alamak.. sorry lmbt reply. dah abis pon Da Showcase II. heheh

Chaz Ali: Ape!!! Salah per?!?!?!?!!

yaNNur: no probs dear.. u too... *wink*

Syamsul: thnks for ur compliment.. =)

jin: send already horrr

adha: yelah.. aku kental per dulu... tsk tsk

YennY: hello dear!!!

shikin: mkn jer eh!!!!!!

fiky: dah dapat per bonesteak dat day!!!

anis: i miss u too dear... muah muah muah

fad: hahaha.. muackzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Alt: giler eh!!!

Choc: lapar??? meh mkn bonesteak meh!!!

Fiky: hahahaha.. yes.. shall eat at deen maiden shop next time.

nana: i still do look kental thou'. hehehehe

YaNtTeE: hehehe.. u too babe!!! so gorgeous as ever!!

Chaz Ali: yelah!! update lah!!!

LYNN: suker ehk!!

sakura: yarh!!! i knw he reads it...

snake: tak nmpk ijat pon!!!! hmmpppff

Nana Sky: takpe!! still.. still, we are librans right?? hehehe

Chaz Ali: ye ker?? bedek uhh!!!!

Baby Iqah: thnks babe... u're linked!!

NiZ: eh?!?!?! alamak!! paisey lah.. niz!! say syg kamu many many tau!!!

a soul: thnks babe for the advice.. u're gorgeous too dear!!!!!

2006-08-09T23:54:00.000+08:00

Not in an effing mood to update actually but ouh well, let's just get it straight.

Happy 42th birthday to my uncle. Hope you like the gift that our family gave it to you and i just love the bonesteak. Takleh tahan uhh.. I just wish you a happy life with ur family and not forgetting a good health and wisdom.

U're the best uncle ok. The bestest uncle i ever had and will only have. I know you are reading this and i want you to know that i appreciate all the things that u have done. All your concerns, ur help, ur care, i can never ever exchange your kindness with other things. Thnks alot!!!

Next up!!!!

Err. Hmm.. nothing much actually. Well, i went out alot these days and that really scares me. Going out = MONEY

Ydae went to esplanade to catch the hip hop gig and fireworks. One word. Tired. Really. The crowd was freaking irritating. Well, it's because i hate to be in crowds. Duhh!!

Promised myself not to go out today although i've got alot of invitations. Hahahaha.. Nak muntah aku. At last i gave up. Made my way to meet Da Fam at Bugis. The rest was kinda shocked to see me cause i've told them for umpteen times that im not coming. Hahahaha.

Made our way to mama-cekik-duit-org-nk-mampos-punya-kedai-mkn for our dinner. Me, anis and ramzie had our bonesteak. yes! Bonesteak! Tulang!! But it's not finger licking like Deen Maiden's at beach rd.

The bill fuckingly cost us $64++++. Kebabai sia!!!! Some of them did not ordered foods for bloody goodness sake!! I bloody felt like punching their bloody face. Just imagine, some of us still havn't finished our foods and there they are, cleaning away the utensils. Bloody rude!!!

Argh!! Forget about that. The foods ain't nice anyway. So!! Made our way to Gas Haus to catch mariachi perform. The rest played pool while me and some others chilled out and watched lord of the rings. Is it?? Yes! Lord of the rings in a pub! get it? hahahaha.

I was too tired to continue so me, anis, een, nas, fiky and jin made our way back home. Sorry ramzie, gotta bounce back quickly. And so, that's all for today. Ok. I know it's lame but i just don't feel like blogging lah..

Will reply to the tags real soon. I mean it.

2006-08-06T15:38:00.000+08:00

Life is so unpredictable. I'll just wait, watch and see what will happens next. I really had no idea what will my life turns out to be at the end of the day, Thanks to everyone who never fails to shower me with happpiness, laughter, care and love. Thank you very much. Am i changing for the better? *shrugs*

I am officially declared a nerdy. No more contact lens for me. Im all for specso! Yeah! It feels weird wearing my newly freshly baked from the oven specs but i need to give my eye an OFF day too after 4 BLOODY YEARS of wearing contact lens NON-STOP hits. haiyoh!

I won't bother to take out my lenses every night before going to sleep and stuffs. I've had enough with eye infections for 3 BLOODY times and waste my money to have my trip to the hospital and get my eye treated. 4 BLOODY YEARS WITH 3 TIMES EYE INFECTION. sickening!

On the lighter note, I will still wear my lenses on some occasions when i feels like it.

Met up with Da Fam yesterday at YP. One word. Crazy. From there, we proceeded to Wisma Atria to catch Craziestar performing and then off to Far East to fill up my stomach again. Ok! I have to admit now that im in love with FRIED MARS BARS! Niz!!! Aku nak lagi!!

Ordered $5 Yuo Char Kuey TWICE!! ok!! im in love with foods right now. Really. Now i know what will i ordered next time whenever we go to far east. FRIED MARS BARS and YOU CHAR KUEY. Organism beb!!

Now im going to promote Da Showcase II alright!

Do come down and support your local acts. I will bet with you guys that this will rock you on beybeh!! c'mon!! do come down. Tickets will be available at the doors. Tickets will be at $3 if im not mistaken. Correct me guys. Do come down alright!

p/s: i really had no idea where the hell is wdlnds CC although for the fact that i lived in wdlnds. C'mon lah! im just 2 years old in this area ok. hahahaha.

Do you people wan to see GAYBOY in action? Catch this people.

Tags Replied:-

Fiky: nvm.. u want bonesteak? wait long long kay.

LYNN*: yer syg!! hahahaha

Chaz Ali: Chaz!!! fikir bkn2 jer eh..

Q-Ra: yeah!!! that's right dear!! bonesteak week!!

ALT: yelah tu!!!

Faz: maaf yer bang.. saya sungguh busy sekarang.. hahaha

sakura: alah sis.. small role only...

*yaNa*: sedap tau!!! *slurps*

Fiky: hahaha.. wait till ns and ur hair is gone!

yaNNur: you too dear!!! taking care.. :)

snake: hahahaha.. jom ijat!! date ngan saya mkn bonesteak jom!!!

2006-08-05T00:24:00.000+08:00

Im in a state of denial.

What should i do next?

Only GOD knows.

Haizz..

Im such a nuisance.

2006-08-03T01:28:00.000+08:00

I love family outings especially when it is the full force. Meaning it's me, my mum, my dad, my bro and my sis-in-law-to-be. I just love it. No words can express my happiness.

Im grateful to have a family like this although sometimes, ehem, you people should know lah eh. hahaha.. *wink*

It's been awhile since i've got my hands on bonesteak. One Word. Yummylicious.. Can i just like post pictures? My brain is not co-operating with me right now..

If you are wondering. yes. Im the only girl. Had some feast with Da Forze. Giler baby hokay!!! hahaha.. Too bad. It's all last min plan. Nie fric uhh!!! mengidam!!!

If you want to see how "handsome" fric is when eating the bonesteak, here's a sneak preview. I swear i kept on laughing hokay.

Im craving for bonesteak again.. Shall we have another round of bonesteak this sat fric??? hahaha.. I swear with ramzie and the rest, it will be more fun. So guys!!!! it's bonesteak time!!!!!

Im trying my best to help you guys. Both me and fric pray for ur safety. We are trying our best to help. After hearing from the both sides, we do not know who is right and who is wrong. We want you guys to settle things maturely. No fightings, no argueing. Strictly professional guys. Yes, it hurts each one of you but we, as a friend, do no wish to see our beloved friends in this state.

I love the both of you. I always pray for ur safety. I do not want to lose the both of you.
*hugs*

2006-08-01T19:46:00.000+08:00

From now on, i will write everything in general. Im not referring to anyone. This is all based from my experiences.

Living in this world is very tough indeed. If you want something, you have to battle for it and achieve it. Someone will win, someone will lose. This is very general if you guys get what i mean.

Life is full of obstacles. We do not know what will happened next, we could not predict the future unless u're the psychic. We will actually get something when we least expected it. Like love.

Things changed, people changed, feelings changed, the ambience changed and everything simply changed from time to time. We could not expect things to be the same throughout your life.

The time is ticking very fast without us realising it. Many things happened and we did not expect it to be. Even your old friend might betray you without you knowing although you both might have been together for years. Talking about backstabbers and betrayers.

This is common. I've been through this shit and im quite sure you people out there might have experienced the same shit as me.

Im not trying to praise myself but i do really treasure my friends. I took them as a part of my family members. Im scared of hurting any one of them especially my bestfriends. I will try to allocate my time with them and spend time together although for the fact that i know i can't.

It's very sad when people starts to talk behind your back, spit out those gossips which is not true about u and also talking about hatred, what do you guys think?

Im a very laid back person. I don't fight over such small matters because i'd rather pen down my feelings here or just shut my mouth up. It's as simple as that. All i believe on is karma. What goes around comes around. Your own siblings might betray you without you knowing it.

If you think i don't talk to u as much i did back then, then you should know what you have done to me. Think about it. Im a very apologetic person and i don't make enemies but if you make me hate you, then that's it. Don't expect anything from me.

Im good to you and i hope you do the same. Don't try to be bullshit behind my back because at the end of the day, i'll get to know the truth. From whom?? That doesn't matter because the truth will be revealed sooner or later.

Yes. The truth hurts.

Tags replied:-

Chaz Ali: tau takpe eh....

anis-: tu pasal uhhh... yuckss!!!

Q-Ra: yes!!! hensem banget..

LYNN*: aiyoh!!! hahaha..

*yaNa*: alah.. extra2 jer...

nas: yes!!! i had fun too!!! shall do it again...

sarah: nolah dear.. it's without warning..

Chaz Ali: u're ALMOST welcome chaz...

a soul: yup!!! u never stop giving compliments eh.. thnk u so much dear...

iraspydey: it's jonathan dear.. :)

Yana Lee: hey dear.. thnks... u're pretty too.. :)

iqah: alamak.. hahahaha..

snake: sob sob.. ijat!! nakmo tgl kan eika!!

Chaz Ali: tak nak!!! bulu roma naik sey!!

fad: nolah dear... hehehehe

shikin: famous?? hahaha.. famous amos aderlah...

nana: hahaha.. paisey uhh.. hahaha

2006-07-29T00:12:00.000+08:00

Is this fair for me??

I have to please everybody surrounds me but im the one who is hurt at the end of the day. I want others to be happy but what about me? Do they actually even care? *shrugs*

There's no use pointing fingers. Now i know who is friends and who is a foe. Im sorry but i just have to let it all out. I do not know to whom may i share this. Prolly this is the only way i can manage to pour my emotion.

I am tired but people expect me to care for their feelings. What about me? YOU are tired. I am tired. WE are tired. I care for ur feelings and i hope you do the same. Is it so difficult?

Im tired of those thinkings, cryings and argueing. I want this to stop. This is enough for me. Even if im sick do they even wanna care, do they even wanna noe? hell no!

Why must i be in this pathetic state? Do friends really come and go? If it is, i do not want to have friends. I would rather be by myself. Why? Even if they were my friends, they won't even care for me but im the one who has to care for them. Might as well i live alone right?

They only come to me when they are having problems but they will move away from me when Im the one who is encountering probs. They will leave me when they have new friends and when they are problems free. How cool is that?

That director just can't stop his act. I've given all the details. What more does he wants? Treat me for a coffee??? Im not interested. Stop your flirt. U're 31. Mind you.

Tags replied:-

Q-Ra: yarp!!! u knw him??

shikin: I call the police if u dare to.. hahahaha

Fiky: kau lambat setapak lah fik!!!

has: alah.. pelakon extra jer...

syiq: ahakz!! where?? here??? ok done!!!! hehehe

sakura: thnk u my dearest!!!

kak azura: alamak!! interview??? interview ape jer tau...

adha: yes dear.. i was der for 2 nights.

Chaz Ali: arh!!!! yelah!!!!!

ALT: hahahaha... kk.. CUT!!!

fad: extra je my dear.. not a leading actress pon..

Faz: what to do... this is life...

2006-07-26T19:46:00.000+08:00

Had a long day at work. Yeah. im working part time now. Thanks to fric and alt for the job that i've got. Woohoo!!! I like!!!

On Monday went to Mediacorp and took my sponsor clothes. Saw alot of familiar faces.. Cool. From there, took the transport and proceed to dhoby ghaut for the shoot. Everything ended by 6am. Took the 1st train home and slept.

Reached home by 7+ in the morning, slept, woke up at 11am and then off to work again. This time for Suria drama, "cinta Q". Im one of the clubbers lah so u can find me danced at the dancefloor.

Everything ended at 6pm, off to mediacorp, took clothes and make up and off to dhoby ghaut again to continue the shooting up till 6.30am. Tiring right? You bet.

Special thanks to Fric for dropping by for awhile and visit me at 4am. hahaha.. yalah!! i need to mention your name what.. hahahaha.. thnks for the food..

Now i want to continue sleeping again.. im dead tired.. hahaha.. sorry horrr... ouh.. the channel 5 story right, the title is "without warning". I acted on one of the episode on terrorism at dhoby ghaut. It will be aired on october.. Tgk jelah eh!!!

Waiting for money to fill up my bank account.. hahaha.. c'mon director!! i need moolaahhss!!!!

Tags replied:-

LYNN*: everything went smoothly darls... miss you!!!

latiff: tau takpe!!!!

Fiky: u are great too!!!

a soul: thnks!!! but i shall not depend on the jade thou'.. u take care too sweetie!

shikin: arh k!!! later i ajak u!!! how???

fad: hello darling!!!! muackzzzz

FIFIFIFIFIFIFO: kabar baik!!!!!!

*yaNa*: hey!!! u're back!!!!

Chaz Ali: aiyah!!! extra2 jerlah!!!!

nas: yelah!!!!! aku tulang per!!!!

fiky: aiyo!!!!!!!

anonymous:alah.. pelakon extra only..

kak azura: really?? great!!!!

EEN: yelah!!!!!!! hahahahaha..

Darla Inc: take evrything slow one at a time... we shall meet soon!!!!! i miss you!!!!

Did i mentioned there's alot of mat-mat SCDF and police??? hahahahaha

2006-07-23T19:13:00.000+08:00

What's up with the chinese and jade? They said it's "ong" or in other words "good luck". Well, it's up to the individual right? Me? I don't know actually.

If it is true, then i shall wear it till i die! hahaha..

I don't quite believe it actually but some things do happen and makes me think and ponder. Initially i used to wear it sometime ago. My life was indeed a happy one.

My ex-manager was fond with the way i worked and everyone doted on me. My mum did said, "maybe it's because of the jade". I don't want to depend on it so i took the jade off frm my necklace.

Things started to change since then. Shall not mention it here but if u are my avid readers ya'll should know what probs i've been encountering. So now, i've started to wear that jade again given by my mum. I've started to smile again thou'. *smiles*

Now!!! Ydae went to the arts hse with Da Fam. Not the full force thou' but it's all good. Ydae was the day where Lady E launch her album. Saw alot of familiar faces frm anakmelayu.com, my aunty and some friends.

Alt was the impromptu host. You guys can actually imagine now right?? Well bro, u're all good. That's a great start and gd exposure for you. Here's some pixies wixies for your eye waxing..

She has been my backbone eversince i knw her..

Well.. Alt made the so called "opening act". Ok! it's introduction beybeh!!!

Lady E with one of the songs.. Not to bounce. [but she told us to bounce.. ????]

Styluz did their thang..

After the show, we went to chill for awhile at Marina. Talk about some stuffs and we proceed home. Linda went home with me and overnight at my house. It's all good..

In the morning, being the idiotic linda, she kept waking me up like hell but to no avail. Im a sleeping beauty baby. Did i tell you i will be a very cranky person when someone disturbs my sleep? UUrrrgghh!!

She threw lotsa pillow, blanket, tissue box and stuffs just to wake me up. In the end, i was babbling to her and she was like ?????????... Ok!! im half awake and i will start to talk nonsense when someone disturbs my sleep. Hohoho.. In the end, she stopped waking me up. hahahaha.

Last pic for the day...

P/s: i have to watch my step now everywhere i go.. This is insane.

Tags Replied:-

Eeeen: which een is this? hahahaha.. thnks btw...

shikin: don't worry dear.. i don't think it's ur bf pon.. hehehe..

ALT: but it's true what bro. guys tend to lay their eyes on girls with big boobs, big butt, sexy clothings and stuffs.. I've been observing this bro..

fad: thanks for adding me up sweetie.. :)

acah: mane ader hootttttt!! saya kental buah lemon lagi ade.. hahaha

anonymous: im not hot dear. and yes im scared.

LYNN*: now im scared of taking risk already. it's all bad sey..

Zack: i don't think so.

a soul: yes.. no matter what, we still have to face this. This is life.

Fiky: bonesteak for me??? hahahaha

Latiff: ok!!! but how much is ur CPF and bank accnt??? hahaha

hola !!!: sape plak nie!!!!!

sakura: yes!!! and adik!!! i want taht yummy bonesteak again!!!

2006-07-21T00:49:00.000+08:00

What's the meaning of love actually?

I still don't understand and get it. Maybe because i've been dumped alot of times. What a life. Is this fair? *shrugs*

Seems that girls nowadays goes for the "bad boys" and guys go for "hot and sexy ladies". Am i right? I seriously think so. Why? Because i don't belong to the "hot and sexy ladies" category.

I don't want to mention names here but i feel that most people nowadays goes for ladies and guys with looks, hot body/boobs, and what matter most is the sexy attitude. BITCH!

im not angry but it's just my thought. If all guys goes for the sexy hot mamas with great boobs, butts, lips and naughty attitude, what will happen to the nerdy2 ladies [like me] ???

The world is never fair. Will never be.

I've heard many rumours about me dating with many guys recently. Yes, i admit, i am. After my last r'ship, im not sure what im going to do next. Im lost.

I can't force them not to make friends with me. I don't want to be labelled as EGO as much as i still do belong to one.

Im not quite sure thou' what's my intention by going out dating with these people. Sorry guys. I don't know whether im finding a new love [im not going to find a new one btw] or maybe it is just another revenge.

I know some of the people i dated may have read my blog. Im sorry. If you think you still wants to date me, by all means.

Revenge may seem sweet sometimes. *wink* But do you really think it is neccessary? *shrugs* As much as i wanted to have a revenge towards guys, i don't have a heart to even do it.

What matter most is, im not finding love right now. Not now. Im sick of getting hurt. The feelings is not a great one to be compared to falling in love. it sucks!

Someone out there have been waiting for 2 yrs. Dammit! Not trying to brag here but... Ok! nvm! But meeting his mum? Getting engaged? And will be living in tampines? A big NO NO for me...

Call me stupid!!!! But i ain't going to risk my life and adapt to a new environment. The biggest mistake that i've ever made was to meet him 2 yrs back. KNN!! Serves me right!

Just wish me luck in my life. I can still live happily even w/o guys. Flirting seems delicious to me. hahaha. I guess im just sick of getting in love. The word "love" just makes me wanna puke and get more of morning sickness. It sucks!

Another thing is, for those who knew what happened to me ydae, pls keep your bloody idiot mouth shut! Esp to faz! ko nk kene cili ngan aku eh!?!?!?! Yes, i am sick and will always be until i visit the doc.

Im the one who is sick not you so shut up! Even if i were to faint on the streets, it's me who is hurt. Not you. So shut up!

Whatever happens to me next even if i am in a coma state, pls don't be a bloody kepochi atapchi to tag at my tagboard hokay!

Tags replied:-

Richard: hahaha.. it is chard.. u've yet to link me beb.

adha: hahaha.. actually aku takut2 jgk...

shikin: thnk u... mestilah.. mak saya kan.. hahaha..

khairi: hahahaha.. thnks... presents????

alt: hahaha.. ORALE KAPA?? presents???

anonymous: kau diam!!! mkn jer tau!!

a soul: thnk u sweetie... u take care too.. :)

*****: i think i knw whu u r... about my ex, i knw him VERY well. 3 yrs beb.. so dun worry.

Faz: Kau diam!! aku punya suka lah!!!!

Alt: uurrggghh!! now everyone is calling me boney tau!!!!

Fiky: TAK TAU MALU EH POMPAN BLANJA LAKI? U OWE ME 1!!!

Lynn: ok makcik!!!

anonymous: shall i banned u for that??? *tight slap*

kak azura: waahh!!! my fav!!!! ckp ngan mama eika nak epok2 sardin!!!

Latiff: *hugs and never let go*

faz: sudahlah kau!!!! bising sia mcm pompan!!!!

2006-07-18T21:22:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUMMY..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU..

*clap clap*

Thnks for bringing me up mum.. U're the best mum that i ever had for 18 years of my life. Although you have scolded me, nagged at me, yell at me but u never fails to fulfill ur job as a great mum.

All these years i thought that u controlled my life so much. Before this, there's no night life, curfews and stuffs. Now i realised that it's all for my own good. Although you have given me freedom right now, i know that i should not misused it. I know my limits mum.

Thnks for bringing me up and the family all these years. You will never ever be replaced. U're my bestfriend i ever had for the past 18 years. Never fails to give me ur listening ears, never fails to lend ur shoulders for me to cry on. NEVER!

U're the best!! I love you mum.. Stay healthy and look young always.. Muacckkzzzz..

I hope you like the gift that i gave you. *hugs and kisses*

Tags Replied:-

khairi: klau nak buat kwn, no prob beb..
anisz: thnks.. :)
faz: aku tak ckp pape pon!!!!
alt: bonesteak aku mane!!!!!
anis: tak de pon!!!
goblin: u r???
fad: thnks babe.. =)
shikin: no probs... u too.. -)
has: hahahaha.. drink and don't drive hokay!!
Curly Man: hahahaha.. ar!!! kk..
anis: me too.. <3333333
syiq: thnks babe.. no prob!!!! <333
alt: no prob bro!!!!!
khairi: gol n gincu?? mummy?? huh?? tak paham uhh
fily: go to you tube lah bro!!!
anis: sent!!!
sallihin & Jin: stop it eh korang!!!!
anonymous: the doc is busy lah!! no time to see me..
chaz: yelah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
shikin: hahaha.. nice!! but i didn't eat sey!!!
kak azura: yelah... im ur no1 fans kan...

2006-07-17T13:13:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DA FORZE..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU..

*clap clap*

Ok. Ydae was a long day for me. Let me start from scratch ok.

Met up with lynn and alt at bishan and off we go to cineleisure. Waited for the full force of Da Fam. Chatted, sang songs, talk craps, meeting and stuffs. Hakim called me and off i met him for awhile before he proceeded to baybeats.

Around 7+, Da fam made their way to far east for the bdae feast while me, lynn, anis and een went to collect the cake from famous amos. As soon as we reached there, we light the candles and made a surpise bdae song. They were quite shock hokay.

I didn't eat and stuffs lah although i've ordered fried kway teow. No Mood lah dey!! but here's a quick video for ya'all on what's been happening.

After our dinner, we made our way to taka garden and chill. Well.. That's not all beybeh. It's sabo time!!!!! hahahaha..

here's a quick video.

Fun right? I know. So at 11, all of them went home 1st while i waited there alone for my friend to fetch me. Yes. It's scary to be alone at night and dark. geez. thank god, after a few mins, i saw his bike frm far. Lari sial aku. punya pengecut!!!

Off he sent me back home with his besar nak mampos bike. I went upstairs for awhile to give my family their supper meal, find my passport and off i went to meet him downstairs again. Where the hell did we go at midnight? Johor lah.

The customs was very clear ydae when we went in. Chill for a while. He bought for me SKL. phew!! chatted and chatted and off we went to fill up his biggy bike tank. When we were entering s'pore, mak kau!!!! jammed sia. They only open up 3 counters.

S'pore bikes are all kiasu. Selit menyelit!! Suhaimi was sweating like hell and i was like babi panggang. Stucked for about 20-30 mins and we are through.

Chilled under the void deck frm 2-4.30am. talked about some stuffs. I nearly cried ok but i tried my best not to. Some personal stuffs were shared between us. Haizzz..

After that, i went home and zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.. Ngantok hokay!!! ok dah.. hahahaha

2006-07-14T12:00:00.000+08:00

Like seriously. I had enough with people calling me ego. Yes! I do have a big fat ego! So? U've got a problem with that?

I just had enough ok! If you think you can't stand me, then try your best to change me and throw the ego of mine away. Like seriously, isn't there any such word like "help" in dictionary?? Is it that difficult to change me?

You people just know how to spurt out hurtful comments rather than helping me out. You people just love scolding me rather than helping me to calm down. You people only know how to SAY but not ACT IT OUT.

Frustrating ain't it?

You people just love to say this

U have a big ego. Do you know that?
My God! what an ego u have.
Stop it with that ego of urs!
Can you at least give me a chance rather than covering ur heart with ego?
U are full with ego! i had enough!
I don't know what else to say! go and throw that ego away!!
Yes!! Guys Sucks! But what do you think about girls with ego?
What a big fat ego u have! i can't believe it.
C'mon lah eika!! Your ego won't bring you anywhere.
I believe if u throw that ego away, i am sure you'll have lots of bfs.
Some people are still waiting but get rid of that ego 1st!
Sial lah!! Ego sial kau!!!
It doesn't look great when you are carrying ur ego with you.

THESE comments are ALL from the guys. Like duh!!! It's been like 245682596157212474 people have been commenting me about my ego.

C'mon lah people!! You people should help me out not hurt me more.

Oh!! Btw, i became like this because of you guys. GUYS! i shall not call you MAN because you are not one. YOU turn me into this state i am now.

It happened 4-5 years back where one guy just shattered my heart and go away. I have to pick those pieces up all by myself. What do you guys take girls like me for? A servant?

Because of you, i've changed. I've tried to move on until i thought i've found someone a few yrs back. Guess what?? What a "happy" ending i have. Since then, i had enough. If you wants me badly, then try ur best to help me throw my ego away.

Speaking of which, my chest is hurt all over again!! How i despise this matter alot!

Talking about chest pain, Ishak Ahmad, a local malay comedian actor, passed away this morning at Jakarta due to heart attack. He's been complaining about chest pain recently and now, he's gone forever. Innalillahi wainna lillahi rajiun.

Right after my mum heard the news, she's been nagging and nagging. Why? Because her stubborn daughter still refused to visit the doctor. Nagging and nagging and nagging. Told me to go for an x-ray and stuffs. My Goodness!!

Limit-limit lepas xray, doc tgk aku punya lungs pon doc geleng kepala. Org lain punya lungs colour putih nanti aku punya lungs colour ape jer keluar. I've already know what the doc going to say to me if he gets to see the x-ray. Confirm!

One more issue for me to bring out. You people have ithcy witchy fingers is it? Trying to be funny or what? YOU people added me up in msn and at the end of the day, not even one conversation appeared on my screen.

Perhaps you people are very shy but is it so difficult for you to just intro yourself and tell me where the toot you get my email add frm? Is it from myspace or my blog? If you intend to make friends, then pls do strike a conversation hokay.

Don't expect me to come out to you and ask hokay! YOU added me. YOU strike your conversation 1st. DON'T add me up just because you wanted to increase your contact list.

At the end of the day, some people will ended with

Who are you?
intro pls?
Do i know you?

AND i WILL be the one who will say

how shld i know?
You added me 1st what!!!
where the toot u got my email frm?
what do u want actually?

SEE!!! im a cranky person when it comes to this. So people. Mind your fingers. If you want to make friends with me, have some important things to discuss or propose me to be ur wife, pls add me AND STRIKE A CONVERSATION 1ST. Hokay?!?!?!

Tags replied:-

Q-Ra: hahaha.. ok ok!!! coming up soon
ira'spidey: thnk u... :)
fezz: alamak!! tumbuk?? hehe.. nanti kene tangkap uhh..
anis-: hahaha.. ok!!! see u soon dear..
faz: aku tak nak plak?!?!!?
snake: thnks ijat!! *sob sob* tak mau tgl kan eika lah ijat!!!
een: hahahaha.. aku bkn pendendam hokay!!
adha: bluek!! garfield is all mine!!
shikin: hahaha. :)
fad: ketawa jer... hehehehe.. :)
faz: kau diam uh!! bwk motor mcm nk gi racing. blum smpai hosp aku dah mati agaknye
sakura: yes sis!!! my fav!!!!!
fanaaa: hey!! long time din hear frm u.. thnks sweets!! tk cre
yannur: alamak!! terkena awak ker?!?! haiyoh!! sorie2
ALT: DANGER BEB!
lynn: ya btol!!
a soul: ahakz!!! *blush*
ALT: dah berzaman aku link kau
faz: aku pat s'pore jgk.. aku mls nk berbual lah
Lynn: love u 2,3,4,5 and 6
ALT: mau berani jer alt kau nak sumbat aku pat IMH. lai lai!!
fad: no worries.. :)
shikin: no probs.. :)
anis-: ok!! nanti saya jumpe doc ok dear.
Q-Ra: thnk u so much.. :) it do helps.
adha: alah!!! doc busy uh nk jumpe aku!!
sallihin: yeay!!!!!!
anis: alah!! both of u blanja me lah!! hehehehe
lynn: LOL

2006-07-12T00:01:00.000+08:00

I think my lifespan is short. My health is deteriorating. It's getting frm bad to worse.

My old sickness came back and i didn't expected it to happen. I thought it had gone far away frm me. Im definately wrong.

Yes, i've been thinking too much. Yes, im dwelling over the past. Yes, my bad habits is conquering me. Yes, i did not went to the doctor. Yes, i vomitted blood again.

Mum has been persuading me to go to the hospital. For what? Just to waste a whole lot sum of money, waste her time and get everybody to worry about me. For what?

As i wished i could throw away all of my problems, i just can't. I.. i don't knw.

I know im stubborn. I know i can't be handle with. I know it's hard for my friends to understand me. I know. I know. But i don't want you to worry about me so much.

I gave up. Im going to the hospital soon. When? I won't tell. If u received any news. Just keep it to urself.

My chest hurts so much.

ok. im crying.....

2006-07-09T22:16:00.000+08:00

Tags Replied:-

Kak Azura: Nolah.. he didn't slapped me actually. Effect jer kuat.. :)
Latiff: Can!! no probs!!!
Faz: Sorry uhh bro. Aku tak dgr uh!!
Snake: *hugs* takpe2.. later i'll get for you another siti k.. hehehe
yannur: thnks sweetie.. i hope so.. and.. i've linked you already.. :)
Chaz Ali: nape? tak boleh ke saya matair ngan kucing?
Lynn: you still have me right!!!!!
Latiff: go plastic surgery uhh!!! hehehehe
shikin: hahaha.. yes!! now u hafto watch this video.
The Don: thnks for the compliment. Application form? not now uhh.. hehehe
a soul: yarp!! u take care too sweetie pie!! :)
fad: *blush* me no good leh.. my friend, alt, is more power. hehe.. muacckkzz

I ate bonesteak AGAIN!! I've been craving for foods since last few weeks. Weird right? Now i have to shed more kgs. Haiyoh!!!!!!

More hate tags among my close friends. Haiyoh!!! You ppl arh!!! Please settle things face to face. Not over the internet.. Ok. This is random.

Met up with Da Fam. Kecohness strikes. And did i mentioned that i've trimmed my hair? Damn that nyoya! Told her to trim 1/2 inch and she ended up trimming 1 1/2 inch of my hair. Fucktard tol! But my head feels light!! *flips hair*

My life has been a lil bit miserable lately. Not about family but it's about other stuffs. I shall not bring this matter up and let the whole world knows about it. Sometimes i felt that im so stupid to tell the whole cyber world what is my panties colour, my bra colour, what did i do today, what's been happening and stuffs.

So now, i guess, i shall changed the way i blog. You guys tell me, what do you guys wanna know when you dropped by to my blog. Is it about me, about the world today, my opinion towards things and people surround me or simply just about my life?

You guys decide.

Btw, my friend and I have decided to do another video. Another break up story. This time round, I don't know what to comment. So many people were looking at us. Paisey kedodol hokay.

It's fun how we can just freestyle those dialogues and concentrate with the scene. Pardon about the lighting and background sounds. Now i want you to judge again. I promise, there will be more videos coming up. Stay tuned.

I love my bloggers alot lah..

2006-07-06T01:21:00.000+08:00

Ydae met up with the bestfriend[s]. Chilling around and we decided to act a scene. It's recorded.

Me and Alt feeling-feeling Anugerah Skrin.

Actor: Alt
Actress: Yours Truly
Video: Lynn and Linda

Note: Pls adjust your volume to the highest level. If not, you can't hear what im babbling about.

So long.. gdbye!!

2006-07-05T13:40:00.000+08:00

woah!! just as i thought of not updating this blog, somebody just have to create a scene here.

If any of u have personal problem with me, do contact me directly through my mobile or email. My tagboard is for people to comment and lay their thoughts. It is not for threatening me. This is so childish.

Hate tags are becoming so popular among bloggers. geezz.

To ELLYSHA,

Do i even knw u at the 1st place darling? As far as i am concern, i don't have any friends that is similiar to your name. Maybe u are my "friends" whom disguised themselves with different name? Possible.

So what is your issue with me now? You acted as if i have debts with you in my past life. About guys? What's wrong with me contacting with my own friends? It's not even a big sin right? What is past is past. I don't like to broad over it.

Maybe you have feelings for him? Then go ahead and seduce him. Im not in a place to hold you frm doing that. He is not even my bf, fiance or husband. What is your purpose by doing this darling? I don't understand.

Why are you threatening me sweetie? What have i done? C'mon!! If he really likes you, then you don't have to worry about anything ok. Are you worried about me patching up things with him? C'mon dear, im not into a r'ship for now. NOT NOW. You don't have to worry k.

If u have my no, do call me. Let we settle things in private. It will leave a very bad impression about you if you still keep on tagging me and threatening me. It's not good darling. i'll be waiting for your call k girl.

2006-07-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

I was tagged by my dearie anis.

7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME

Im easily touched by little little things.
I really despise liars, betrayers, 2 faces people, broken promises & those ppl who thinks they knw me since eons ago.
I may be air and stone headed but im actually soft hearted
I forgive a person so easily although they will repeat the same mistakes and hurt me again and again.
Yes, i do have a lil bit of chinese blood frm momma's side. so stop questioning me further.
I may look snobbish but get to knw me 1st then u'll have the idea what kind of person am i.
When i say i am committed, meaning i am really committed.

7 THINGS THAT SCARES ME

Allah
Judgement day
Heights
Failures
Losing my loved ones
Cockroaches
When im broke

7 RANDOM MUSIC AT THE MOMENT

Red Red Wine by WDC
So Sick by Ne-yo
Hips don't lie by Shakira
Stolen [Club Remix] by Jay Sean
Ratuku Diana by Dinodi
Real Love by Massari
Buttons by Pussycats Dolls

7 THINGS I SAY THE MOST

tau takpe
ehk?
fuck sia
mmm
arh
k
yelah

7 PEOPLE TO DO THIS

Anyone
who
feels
like
doing
this
ok?

like i've said in my tags, i've lost all of ur no. I don't know what happened. Blame it on my itchy fingers. Just msg me with ur name k. Maybe i won't be updating that often. I am really not in a mood for anything.

And friends, don't worry too much about me yarh. Let me settle these things one at a time. When everything is over, i'll be back. Thnks for all the encouragement. See ya soon k.

*HUGS AND KISSES*

2006-07-03T00:30:00.000+08:00

Things have gone all wrong.. Im not in a bloody mood for anything, anyone and everything.

Some people just could not understand me, myself and I.

The last resort im going to take is to change my no. and nobody is going to know this no. of mine except my family members. And the last thing im going to do is to severe all ties between me and my friends.

yes. It's that bad. So, don't try to provoke me if you don't want me to resort into this situation. What i've said, i mean it. Promises are not meant to be broken.

Im so disappointed with some people and i really am. VERY.

Im going to take a drastic decision which all of you won't expect it to be. Don't try me people. I repeat, DON'T TRY.

This thing won't be long and im going to bet with you people that the upcoming news you're gonna hear will be a big shocking news.

I HATE LIARS, HYPOCRITE, THOSE WHO THINK THEY CAN LIVE WAY OFF BETTER AND THOSE WHO ALWAYS WANT PEOPLE TO FOLLOW THEIR WAY.

FUCK YOU!

2006-07-01T23:54:00.000+08:00

As promised, i'll reply the tags by today. So here it goes.

a soul: thnks.. u too.. taking care. :)
snake: alamak ijat!!! takmo faint lah!!!! aiyo!! ** neno neno**
has: thnks kakak ku!!!!! ENTAH!! hahaha
adha: hahahaha... cute kan!!
anonymous: tkmo perli2 pasal my mata hokay!!
anis-: i had fun hokay!!!
Faz: alamak dekni!!! tkleh simpan rahsia lah!!
a soul: :) *hugs*
fricco: u can just talk to any one of us right? we are worried sick about u hokay!
Nana Sky: Check!! before u bite her, i bite u 1st can?
adha: aite..
Chaz Ali: ckp jer pkai swimming trunks.. tapi haprak!!
Kak Azura: LOL
Sakura: be careful?? y??? im older than those students in the sch. so they are the one who shld be careful.. hahaha.
fad: hahaha.. muacckkzzz
snake: ok!! but not for today's post alright!!

Aite. Im done with the tags. So what's happening today?

All of us planned to meet at Harbourfront by 11.30am. So, i went out frm my hse around 10.15 to meet Linda and Chaz. BLOODY HELL!!! i can no longer use my sec ez-link card.. Expired already. So i have to buy the adult ez-link at the passenger service which cost me 15 bucks. Shittos!!!!!!!!

Surprisingly, the 3 of us reached at the place designated 1st. 11.30am SHARP hokay we reached there!! So we bought breakfast at the coffeeshop. I bought mutton chop which bloody hell cost me 4 bucks and it's damn salty! Linda bought Mee Kuah and Chaz bought Roti prata.

As predicted, i didn't finish that bloody salty mutton chop and chaz finished the foods off. Latiff and Nas came soon after. Followed by lynn and Alt. By the time they reached there, it's already 1.00pm. Those who never fail their eng and maths before, please calculate for me how long does the 3 of us have to wait? And it's not even the full force. Thank you!! hahaha.. im not mad lah.. i understand!!! :)

We went to Palawan Beach, get changed and off to the beach!! Initially i planned to get myself tanned but my skin colour does not want to change. I think my skin wants to keep its colour to the original. Bagero btol!

Soon after, Jin, Anis and Faith came. Quickly get changed and *splash*! hahaha. After quite sometime, Een came. So we swam, played uno, played taiti, played around and stuffs.

After a while, my mood suddenly deteriorated. Why? A group of malay guys beside us kept playing jiwang songs and that's when i started to reminisced about my past life. Eventually, that certain place was a memory for me. It turned out that i kept thinking and thinking. Thinking about my choices, thinking about my decision and thinking about my life. I shed tears w/o realising it. And i swear i've got no mood after that. Bitch sia!

Around 7++, get changed and off we go. Went for our dinner at the coffee shop. I had my bone steak. Yummy!!! and the special chendol.. double yummy!!! The thing is, Anis and Een ordered TWICE for the chendol!! hahaha.. cute kan?!?!?! Ok.. after dinner, had some pollution for the air and off we go home. Im totally shagged right now and im turning in. Before that, here's the last picture.

I LOVE YOU GUYS ALOT!!!! I HAD FUN TODAY WITH U DEARIES!! MUAACCKKZZZ.

im in dilemma.

2006-06-30T13:00:00.000+08:00

I've been tagged by Nana Sky.. kk.. I'll do this quickly aite.. Btw taggers, i'll reply ur tags tomorow k!!!! sweeetssss.....

Name 20 people you can think of right now.Don't read the question(s) until you've named the 20 people.At the end of this, choose five people to do this.

1* Lynn
2* Chaz
3* Alt
4* Fricco
5* Zul
6* Hakim
7* Adha
8* Yul
9* Linda
10* My Bro
11* Kak Su
12* Nizam
13* My Mum
14* My Dad
15* Redzwan
16* Amira
17* Kak Azura
18* Rimau
19* Razali
20* Anis

How did you meet #14- Since i was born into this world

What would you do if you didn't meet #1?-I can't live w/o her.. ahakz!!.

What if #9 and #20 dated?-NO!!!!!!!

Would #6 and #17 make a good couple ?- No NO!!

Describe #3-Joker!!!

Is #8 attractive?-yeah!!

Describe #7-my bestie back in sec sch days.

Do you know any of #12 family member?-only his sisters?

What would you do if #18 confess to u tat he likes u?-Mampos! she's a lady!!

What language does #15 speak ?-mly, eng..

Who is #9 going out with?-Ntah.

How old is #16 ?-13

When is the last time you spoke to #13 ?-a few mins ago

Who is #2's favourite band/singer?-Limp Bizkit???? kan?!?!?!?!?!

Would you ever date #4 ?- used to

Would you ever date #1?- always!!! hahahaha..

Is #15 single ?-i guess so.

Is #19 your good friend?-used to during silat days.. hahaha.. memory!!!

What's #10's last name?- no last name lah he!!! oh!! nama bpk eh?!?! pandai2 cari sendiri!!

Would you ever be in a relationship with #11?-my bro will kill me!!!

School of #3?- Too old to go to sch!! ahakz!!

Where does #6 live ?-Tampines

What's your fave thing about #5 ?- ALOT!!!!!

Have you seen #2 naked before ?- I think tmrw i can see him naked uhh!! hahaha.

The Five People I'm gonna tag
+Chaz
+Adha
+Kak Azura
+Amira
+Anis!!!
K dah!! buat lah ehk korang!!! chow!!!

2006-06-29T19:48:00.000+08:00

CAN YOU PEOPLE PLEASE STOP PASSING MY NUMBER AROUND??

IM NOT IN AN EFFING MOOD TO MAKE NEW GUYFRIENDS OK!!!!!

I THANK GOD FOR THE AMOUNT OF GUYFRIENDS I HAVE RIGHT NOW.

I HAD ENOUGH WITH PEOPLE WHO THINK THEY CAN PLAY A FOOL WITH ME!!

LAST WARNING!!!!

2006-06-28T23:22:00.000+08:00

It's a pleasure to see your own child grew up infront of your eyes. If i were to have my own in years to come, i'd like to see him/her grow infront of me. Really.

Im sorry babe for shouting at you yesterday. I was not myself. Even mum told me that. Well, some "things" just love to accompany me back home uh. You was lucky i didn't push/throw you or else your mum would have sued me in court. Child abusing. Ahakz.

Sorry darling. I love you lots ok. And i just hope these creatures would stop following me back home. I don't need your company btw. I was truly sick yesterday and my body was aching. I was behaving differently. God! I swear i had enough with ghost stories.

My babe has started talking. No! Not in english or malay but in german and france. I really don't understand her language. She only use a lil bit of malay which i would understand at certain times.

For example. If she's crying and wants attention from my mum, she will screamed and said, "nenek!!". Oh! Have i mentioned that i have a new name frm her? She called me "atak" instead of kakak. Her frequent use of language is "entah". The rest like i've said, she speaks fluent german and france. I shall take up these courses in order to understand what she's babbling about or maybe her complaints.

I received my entry proof today. God! I am posted to Woodgrove Sec Sch. Where the hell is that sch located? I knw it's a wdlnds but where on earth it is? I swear i don't know although for the fact that i lived in wdlnds.

And the freaking entry proof does not state what time is my science practical gonna start. Yelah! Aku boleh predict per pukul brape dia start!

In 4 mths time, i can't wait to pursue my dream. Ahakz. No! Not about my O's. It's something else. *rub hands* I'll tell you people if im successful. *wink*

My bro have decided to quit his job and work at Changi Airport. Mak Kau!!! I asked him what job and he just replied me with "cargo". Mampos! Abg!! I also want to work at Changi!!! At least u have a company to go to work. hahaha.

Nah. I won't go to the extend of working at Changi Airport unless i decided to work as stewardess. If only i can apply for Emirates and stay at Dubai for 2-4 years. Woah!! Splendid! Jadi minah arab aku.

I need a part time job btw. Anything that is related to camera. *ehem ehem* Modelling maybe? cey!!! I lost my opportunity the other day and i do regret. Seriously! If i were to go to that place the other day, i would already have a job. chet!!!!!

I wouldn't mind if it is from some bridal agency. Aku kan mcm minah kawin-kawin. Anybody out there got contacts with these people? Pls email me lah k. Aku kan muka tak tau malu. Ahakz. K. Stop it ehk! Stop making faces k!

After some flashback, i now realised that i do have a BIG FAT ego towards guys. Haizz. Even Lynn told me that straight to the face hokay!! How sad can that be? I always brush it off when guys do criticised about my ego. Aiyerrr!!! I didn't knw that it is quite bad.

What shall i do now? Put aside my ego and let all the guys take control of me? Or let that ego overrule myself and hurt my soul? Which one? Despite my BIG FAT ego, i am a soft-hearted creature. I can cry easily. Try to hurt me. There you go, pool of tears. Really.

So now, i think i have to brush my ego off a little. Talking about BIG FAT ego, i think i have to go on a diet so that i can turn it into SMALL SKINNY ego. Can? Will that do??? Boo!!

Replies to taggers.

Chaz: your head feels hot? Put egg and see whether it cooks or not. ahakz.

bamzie heezow: thanks!!! :)

a soul: ahakz!! thanks! u too. take care!!

Sha`: yupz!! it's all foods baybeh!!

Richard: thank u chard!!!

nana: ahakz!!! yum yum!!! i like!!!

shikin: alah!!!! :(

youngorgeous: thnk u darling!! *hugs*

an0n: im aite.. thnks. :)

Nana Sky: yupz!!! im back!!!!

Shikin: Wokay!!!!!! free mah!!! of course i want!!! :)

2006-06-26T22:57:00.000+08:00

It's been awhile since i went out with both of my parents. So today was the day. My dad took 1 day leave to accompany my mum for her eye check up. Most probably this week, my mum has to go for an eye operation. Pray hard for my mum's safety.

After the whole process, went to civic for some house matters and then we proceed to town for our dinner. Where? Ramen Ten. Well, the foods might be appealing enough to make you go gaga over it. But sadly, the foods didn't turned out the way we expected. Furthermore, it burns my parents' pocket. The total cost is $59.50. I swear i won't step in there again. A big disappointment to Ramen Ten.

After our dinner, we went back home. I swear that my stomach was so bloated that i felt it is going to burst soon. My parents went over to the pasar malam at Marsiling while i met up with the gangs at admiralty. I was late!! hahaha..

Went to search for foods at pasar malam admiralty despite my bloated stomach. Damn!! I've gained weight sia!!! Cannot make it.. I bought Muah Chee and Takoyaki.

Went to the playground for our lepak session. Started off with ghost stories. Thrilling ok!! Chaz bought 3 packets of durians for our feast!!!! hahaha.. Im so loving it.. [although i just ate 2 pieces out of 3 packets] Chaz ate 2 boxes of durians hokay!!! and now he is complaining that he is feeling quite hot. hahaha. don't pray pray horr..

While having our ghost and end of world session, suddenly there's a small monkey mintak kene sepak. Let's see the video.

Irritating right?? After all those grandmother stories, alt made a move 1st. Has and Loot came soon after. Eat and eat but i didn't finished the foods that i've bought. Lol. So, they decided to play taiti. I didn't play and i have to admit that i don't know how to play. hahaha.

Has kept whining about wanting to eat satay.. hahaha.. so cute lah she.. But she told me not to update the video here. Nvm, u all can see at youtube.. hahaha..

Around 10, all of us decided to make a move. Being the sleepy and bloated i am, indeed i am one fat happy lady now. hahaha.. We shall make another lepak session horr..

This Sat!!! Who's coming over to Sentosa?????? Putcha hands in the air!!!! hahaha.. Pot luck is the theme. So everybody!!! Bring ur own foods while i will bring my OWNSELF.. set?!?!?!?! hahaha.. c ya!!!!!!

Btw, I miss trekking so much. It's been awhile since i last trekked. Anybody wanna join me to go trekking? Or maybe bowling? Shall we go pulau ubin guys??? shall we??? Or maybe Bt timah Hill is gd enough? I just want to go trekking lah!!!!

Replies to taggers.

anonymous: Don't feel like going online. Sorry.

kak Azura: wanna see pictures!!!

Chaz: Yes!! correct!!!

fad: hahaha.. dia tu prasan jer lebih!!!

Qaz: ahakz.. skali skala..

adha: aiyerr... aku pon malas dey. hahaha

sha`: thank u.. thank u.. *blush*

Chaz: chaz jeles!!!!

shikin: hvn't yet uhh!!! gonna watch it soon.. best seh tgk free.. nk ticket!!!!!

anis-: yes!!! can't wait!! anis!! link me lah!!!!

has: yelah kakak ku yg tersyg... hahaha..

I don't know how to put this into words but somehow or another, i have to. I've put a stop in everything. between us. im so disappointed in you. really. very disappointed after what had happened recently. I guess, there's no use creating all those promises when u only meant to break it. Im truly hurt and disappointed by ur attitude. I guess, this is it. Im moving away. And do you remember our promises? Just act as if we both don't have any promises intact. you can do whatever you want without feeling any guilty. i don't want u to apologise for some broken promises. It ain't worth it. You can do whatever you want frm now on without feeling any guilty. Pardon my attitude towards you because the scar that u have made to me has not heal yet and i don't think it will. Thanks for everything. You've taught me something about life. You will never realise that the Eika u used to know has changed tremendously. Thanks!

2006-06-24T23:55:00.000+08:00

I was totally pissed off today. TOTALLY. But whatever it is the bestfriend[s] were there beside me just now. From cranky mood to ok-ok mood. What are friends for right? Thnks bestfriend[s].

Went to my dad's hse today for some feast. Darla Inc was in traditional clothes and darla kept complaining about her eyes and the heat. Poor her. We wore a suit that is nearly the same colour.

Waited for another bestie. LATE as per usual!! He came with a kinder bueno. Free some more!! Took 172 and off we go. I didn't realised that i saw someone frm the past until lynn shouted at my ear. I was extremely shocked! All i can do is stare through the window towards PA.

We reached dad's hse when the people have started praying. Poor the bestfriend[s] have to sit outside. For a short while only.

While others were busy with the prayers, Darla Inc was busy camwhoring with each other. I kept complaining. Why? I was god damn hungry for goodness sake.

Noted: All pics were taken frm my hp. The quality is quite gd i must add.

I was damn hungry that i ate 4 small pieces of currypuffs. Damn!! During the feast, i had 4 scoop of rice. Not forgetting, lots and lots of lemak cili padi.. I was one happy lady after the meal. Hahahaha..

Asked daddy 10 bucks to buy some stuffs. Ended up, he gave me 30 bucks. How great can that be?? I should kelentong more!! nvm.. By the end of this mth, i will be one rich lady. hahaha..

Before going home, the bestfriend[s] have decided to make one videoclip.

Camerawoman: Eika
Sound"lady": Lynn
Actor: Mr Alt

Here's the shot!!

Pardon me for the lighting. A bit dark here. So, after our hardwork and all, my dad sent the bestfriend[s] home. Thnks bestie for accompanying me. I hearts u guys alot. Lynn, u knw how much i love u right? And Alt, we shall make another videoclip. Aite? Cool.

Btw, im going to chop off my hair soon. yeah!! that's right!! chop it off!! chop chop.. And im very sure mummy is going to scream her hell out of her lungs if she gets to know this. She ALWAYS tell me not to cut my hair. She told me to wait till Hari Raya then i can make a spiral hair.. like toot!! bila mau game? i can't even TRIM my hair.. gguuurrrrhhhhh.. split ends is conquering my head right now.. geezz.. i really need to trim my hair lah!!!

I can't wait for my money to flow in. Woohoo!! So long.. Gd night people... *wink*

Replies to taggers.

Sha`: huh? funny? then i shall start a career as a clown lah.. can??
Chaz Ali: Wahsey!!!! it's good ok that i've made an effort to update.
Khairul: aite.. do blog hopped often aite..
snake: hahaha.. nk bwk balik?? tak dpt kaes!!!
Mirza: huh? really?? wahsey!! u shld approach me sia..
yuni: of course my dear.. :)
sakura: u always got nutink to do one.
diinii: thnks sweety!! :)
Kak azura: hilang?? mane ade!! masih hidup lagi ni. :)
u noe whu: it takes time my dear friend. do bare with me.
Qaz: saya tunggu duit masuk baru saya nk gi tgk.. :)
chaz: saya tertdo sih!!! waduh waduh!!!
iqah: hmm.. tak nmpk lah syg!! u saw me?? hehehe
lynn: ahakz.. :P
chaz: Putcha L's up!
a soul: YEAY!!!!!!!
qaz: terima kasih adek qaz ku yg tersyg.... :)

2006-06-20T01:35:00.000+08:00

I seriously don't know what to update right now but my uncle chaz has been nudging and pestering me to update.

[singlish version]
Chaz horr!!!! Update what?!?!?!?! KNNCCBBBQ!!! u understand what i say not?!?!?! haiyah!!! ma fan lah ni!!!!
[end of singlish version]

Lynn came over to my house. Initially we planned to study but ended up this cute chubby lynn decided to use the comp. hahaha.. ouh well. What about me? Practically, i've been laying my ass off in bed!

Lynn initiated that we should go for a bowling session. Wait till the 4 of us get our pay lah!! now im officially broke. Nvm, this sat i'll go over to my dad's hse and pester him to give me money and N80!!

I want to watch RV badly.

*scratch head*

[i seriously don't know what to update]

Oh! I've been receiving alot of wierd dreams lately. I've been dreaming about my late grandpa and a person whom used to be a part of my life.

I dreamt that my grandpa told me to sleep beside him. Hmm. Weird!! I dreamt about that person and he got 2 faces. Wierdlah!! He was so freaking mad at me for i don't-know-what-actually-happened. It really bothers me alot seeing him getting mad because i don't like to see his face when he is mad. Maybe that will happen in months to come? Some of my dreams do come true ok!!

Alt made a prank call to me just now! Freaking bloodshit!! Here's the conversation.

Me: Who's this?

Alt: You don't remember me?

Me: C'mon lah! Who's this?

Alt: Do you still remember all those promises u've made to me back in sec sch days?

Me: Huh?!?!?! What the...

Alt: Don't you remember?? All those promises?? Back in sec sch!!

Me: *getting paranoid*

Me: Who the hell is this!!! What the fuck you talking about!! Who's this!!

Alt: Hahahaha!!! Akulah Alt!!

Me: Cibai!!!!!!!!!!!

Alt: I should continue with the trick till you cry!!

Me: Lek Sua!! I won't cry hokay!!

Alt: Hahaha.. Best uhh!!

I really thought it was "him" ok.. Especially when it comes to sec sch days!! Fucktard tol Alt!! Lynn!!! You better stop laughing eh!!!! UUURGGGHHH! How i hate prank calls..!!!

I've got lotsa tags to be replied. Any kind soul who is sincere enough to help me reply all the tags? kindly please??

Errr... I'd rather think i reply all the tags because my brain is officially empty with words to update this entry. Sorry horr chaz!!!

Reply to taggers

passerby: thanks!! :)

fad: muacckkkzzzzz

adha, yul, lynn: everything is over now!! it's aite!!

fi: aku kudut?? meh kasih lah byk2!!!

anonymous: im back now!! all smile!!!!!

oliver twists: aite.. thnks bro!!!!

sha`, sakura, dwarf, shikin, fad, `acah, chaz, adha: im alright now darlings!! cheer up!!!

????: u are?? thnks for the comments.. :)

zoolaa: thnk u sweety!!!

Rasheed: ok!! saya akan senyum selalu!!

anonymous: any probs with that? call me whatver you want to.. :)

Chaz: tak nak plak!!!!

adha, sakura, sha`, `acah: Thnk you ppl!!! love ya'll loads!!!

Feeq: i do have offers but let me think all over again.. thnks for ur compliment! :)

Lynn: ape nabei!!! gua ada lurp sama lu jgk tau!!!

fricco: aiikk!!! main cak cak u?!?!?!

lynn: lah!! ni lynn mane lak!!!

chaz: ha uncle!!! dah update nah!!! ada happy?!?!

2006-06-18T03:15:00.000+08:00

OK!!! I broke my promises!!!!! Blueekk!!!!

Yes, i did closed down the blog for a moment but i just can't resist blogging. My head will turn upside down and my blood will stop working and i will DIE!

Klah, klah.. U guys can start gossiping about me with breaking up my own promises.
yada yada yada...

psst: I only broke 1 of the promises. The rest is still stay intact hokay!

I have so many stories to tell ya'll but where shall i start??

Friday went to SSF. Supported Da Fam but only Da Forze make it through to the finals. Well, I've got no say in this thing. Judges see, Judges judged, Judges potek and judges gundu!! Saw alot of Teck Whyeans WITH UNIFORM around Cineleisure. Why horr??

Me being me. I ended up looking down to the ground when i made my way to cine. I was a lil bit reluctant to look up, smile like kerang busuk and said, "hey!! i used to be a teck whyean!! im ur senior!! do u remember me??!?!!?" ok. Itu part bedek!!

On Sat, I came a lil bit late. I came after Da Forze has already performed. Shitto!! With the overweight helmet.. Another shitto!!!!

After the result, went over to Fricco's bike to keep my helmet there and proceed to Lucky Plaza to eat. Saw alot of familiar faces. Fric went home to get changed and we decided to buy movie tix at Lido.

Waited for Fric to arrive and we proceed to watch Silent Hill. Fuck you!! it's not scary hokay!! But i kept on getting stunned and shocked because some SOTONG beside me decided to be irritating.

After the movie, went over to YP. Yassir and yan came over. I was freaking sleepy and not in the mood for everything after something happened. Around 10.30, told alt and lynn that i wanted to go home. Took my helmet and off i go w/o bading goodbye to yassir and yan.

They may have thought something is loose up in my brain. I almost break down into tears in the train but luckily lynn and alt was there beside me. Thnks people.

I don't know what's wrong with me nowadays. Im easily mad at people, im easily hurt and im getting way tooooooooo emotional. That's bad. If i don't want that something but people force me into it, i'll break down right away. get it? No?

Ha! it's ok. My eng is getting frm bad to worse btw.

Im easily hurt when people won't listen to me when i talk. I'm hurt when people can't help me get what i want. Im hurt when nobody even msg and ask how i am today.

Argghh!! It's getting way too far man!! I must control this emotion of mine.

There's alot of commotion about the "im fine" picture that i've posted up lately. It's just a picture. That hand does not even belong to me. hahaha..

GOTCHA!!!

Ok. I knw it's not funny. Im sorry k dearies.

Some people kept asking about my status now. Yes. Im officially single. Don't ask me what happen. I don't wish to tell the whole world what had happened. We both have decided we should stay as friends. Bestfriends. It should be ok. I guess.

Am i looking for a new partner in my life?
NO

Do you regret after what had happened recently?
Nah. I guess it's predestined.

Are you ready to open up your heart to other guys?
ahahaha.. NO! Me and Fric have already put a bet. We both will not go for any r'ship. If any one of us decided to have a r'ship, he/she will have to belanja makan besar-besaran!! i don't want to lose sia!!

We'll see who ended up having a r'ship 1st hokay.

Eh!! Enough lah!! Look at the time now!!!! im turning in..

Bye!!

I love my dear bloggers lah!! Muacckksss!!!